21 Day Self LOVE Journey

#SelfLoveChange

•Monday Feb 18th Today I decided to remove my hair extensions, and give myself a more natural look, and take a break for awhile. I love that you can change your look from one day to the other, but a break will do me good.

Later in the day I saw my brother, and he didn't notice the difference. I went out to dinner, and I still received the same attention I usually get.

The day I decided to get hair extensions, it was because I felt insecure about my hair, but I think the insecurity came from a deeper place within myself, nothing to do with outer beauty. It happens, but where I'm standing now my value as a person means a lot more than outer beauty, and I love the feeling. Okay, first day out of the way... #SelfLoveChange 20 more days to go!

•Tuesday Feb 19th Today, i stepped it up and decided to cut my hair and change the color, nothing dramatic, just a more natural look. I LOVE IT! It feels like the real me is back, I can breathe and just be SHELLY. I'm loving this feeling of knowing what's important in my life, and not being misguided by trends, and the illusions of the world. I'm Working on feeding my soul, and finding inner peace by focusing on helping my ten year old nephew become a better person. I'm guiding and teaching him between right and wrong, and showing him that he is truly loved and cared for. The results have been extremely rewarding, and that makes me super happy.

•Wednesday Feb 20th Today I followed up with friends and colleagues in regards job opportunities within broadcasting, and marketing. I actually got a great response. Tomorrow I will submit my resume to a couple of potential media outlets. I worked out even though I didn't feel like working out, my spirits were a bit low. I'm not not sure why, but later in the day I started my menstrual cycle, reason why I had a cramp while working out, but I still completed my exercise regimen. I felt so much better after. I had dinner with my son, and brother. It was a Pleasant time! My nephew has been telling everyone how he's practicing how to be responsible, and a better person by behaving well. That makes me extremely happy, big blessing on top of another blessing that happened today. I truly feel that everything is aligning for what's to come, and if I continue my journey by the hand of God all will fall into place.

•Thursday Feb 21 Today was an okay day, not every day is perfect! I felt kind of tired, and I had a headache throughout the day. Regardless of how my body felt, I decided to make the most of my day by being positive and loving towards others. I didn't workout today, but I did eat healthy. I also made time to visit  my parents for dinner. Visiting my mom is always a blessing. I also posted a picture, with a quote which describes how I feel at this point in my life. Here's the quote.... “I BELIEVE in being STRONG when everything seems to be going wrong. I BELIEVE that HAPPY girls are the prettiest girls. I BELIEVE that tomorrow is another day and I BELIEVE in MIRACLES.

As I'm getting ready to wrap up today and look back to this day, I realize I could've been miserable due to my aches, but I always remind myself to push harder even when times get though... There's no perfect days, but we can create perfect outcomes, by simply deciding to make the most of everything that comes our way. Also what helps me remain strong is my FAITH in GOD, because I know his mighty power is by far more powerful than any challenge I might be going through. I'm God I trust, and with him everything is possible. With that I close today's Self Love Journey.

-BTW my aches may be because it's that time of the month. #TheStruggleIsReal

Gotta pop some Advil for the pain. Good night!

•Friday Feb 22 Hello, so today I still had pain, but again decided to make the most of my day. I was able to get a writing gig for a marketing firm in Orange County, freelance. I will be writing press release forms in collaboration with a friend. We tend to work really good together, plus it gives me the opportunity to be around him. He's  one of my best friends, and it's good to be around people you enjoy, so I thought it would be a great idea to collaborate and continue our marketing, foodie and friendship journey together. There was lots of positive today, but I did semi got into a disagreement with someone, but I decided to remove myself from the situation before things escalated as I care very much for this person, and I know that at times his attitude gets the best of him, and he becomes arrogant, and judgmental, and it's his way or the highway... And since I'm not perfect, and I'm only human I can lose my temper as well, so I prefer to walk away and let things cool down, or let that person get off their high horse and fall in their ass hoping they'll have more clarity after the hit! lol jk! But seriously, sometimes it's better to remove yourself from a negative situation for your own peace of mind, and let the other person be angry at themselves, or unhappy, moody or whatever it is that they might be feeling, or going through. Some people tend to takeout their anger, and insecurities by being rude, or belittling others, that's how bullies are created. Never allow situations like that bring you down, because anger, or unnecessary judgment only comes from evil, and should have no place in your heart, or spirit. Detox and remove negativity from your soul, body and mind. Give your all to God, worries, achievements, everything, because with God all things are possible if we believe.

I also want to mention that my little nephew has truly improved his behavior. We have been able to spend more time together since he's been on vacation, and we've talked about several topics, and he has volunteered to be a good boy, as he tells me. He says he loves me, and he wants to be good. That truly makes me happy.

I might not be his mommy, but I know his real mommy is watching, and guarding him.

There's no perfect days, but we have the power to make the most of every day. Good night!

•Saturday Feb 23 Today I started my day with pain again. This tension headache has been truly kicking my ass this past days. I kind of started with a negative attitude due to something I over heard the previous night, and felt I should cancel plans to celebrate my cousins birthday at the house and just take her out to avoid any negativity.

After taking some time to pray over the situation I realized that some people tend to say and act a certain way due to their state of being, but I should not allow their ways to intervene with my plans to bring the family together and celebrate my cousins birthday. I redirected my thoughts, changed my attitude, and followed up by sending the invite to family and friends. Everyone become supportive, and we're looking forward to another family get together tomorrow. I went shopping for the cake, decorations, gift and some flowers. My cousin is a sister to me, and the only person I've never gotten mad at. Can't wait for tomorrow, Pozole, cake and family.

My nephew continues to be good, and today he called me mom. I didn't say anything to him, since to him the closest female he has that plays the role of his mother is myself. He's like a son to me, and lately we have been spending a lot of time together. He told me about a song that says angel, and that it reminds him of his mommy, since she's an angel in heaven. I'm just trying to do my best to be a good role model, and aunt to him.

•In regards to my pain, it went away later in the day. Pain free, Yay!

•Also, I worked out. •Cooked healthy, ground chicken and sweet potatoes. •Shared a miracle story that recently happened to me.

Even though my day started a bit bumpy, I was able to turn it around, by simply changing my thoughts, and attitude. I'll leave you guys with this... "Change your thoughts, and you can change your world". Good night!

•Sunday Feb 24 Today I decided to have a wonderful day, and I did! The birthday celebration for my cousin was a success. The family got together, we had a feast, great food and laughter.

Later in the evening when everyone was gone except my nephew who's my little companion was the only one by my side. Something happened that broke me for a bit, but after a moment of prayer and meditation I was able to regain strength and realized that sometimes God allows us to take the blindfold off to finally come to our senses and remove ourselves from toxic relationships, whether it may be friendship or an actual relationship. I decided to practice self love, and so I did. I took a huge step in my life, and only God knows where this journey will lead, but I have a feeling, bigger and better awaits. As I prayed I knew I was doing the right thing. I can not preach and hope to help others with their journey if I'm not all the way in with my intentions to achieve. "Practice what you preach".

Today I broke down just like so many others do, because life isn't always rainbows and butterflies, but I took the pain, and turned it into strength, wisdom, and motivation, and let me tell you.... Sometimes what seems as the worst thing ever, happens to be your biggest blessing. It's God's way of saving you, and wanting something better for you. He will take you from broken and guide you into your true destiny, because his plan is always bigger than yours if you only believe, and have faith. For that to happen, you must first believe and let him lead the way by walking in his favor.

I'm excited for tomorrow, and the day after. I can breathe and feel at peace and know blessings are on the way!

"The Bigger the Force, The Greater the Outcome"

That phrase was in my mind throughout prayer and meditation session. Good night! Stay in the journey, it might not be easy, but so far it's helped me find inner peace, and a wiser person in how I approach situations.